I am officially nested in with entertainment. Now just for the process of not living out of a mini fridge for much longer. Living with strict bachelor rule with plates and dishes. Just enough for me. slowly dealing with the whole clean stuff and make it look nice. I think it does but need to figure out where I can put all my kitchen stuff. Need to organize. Miss you all and come visit when your in the arera. I'll throw you a party! only if I can afford it:)

Peace out cub scout

So much to do and plenty of time but to wait is agony but needed in the next step of life.

I'm buying a house. Its a half a double in downtown Bethlehem on Maple street(about a block from the Gute if you walked thru the house's). Tomorrow I go thru the home inspection and I am very excited. The process of cataloging all my belonging and figuring out where to put them is overwhelming for I still have a month to go before anything happens.

At the same time I'm a best man in a wedding in one week. Yes its scary to think but I am only really one half of the best men. there are two of us. anyways... This weekend the groomsmen are all going up to tony's cabin in pocono and we'll be all wild and crazy then next week is wedding stuff like rehearsal dinner and he cerimony then a speech(biting nails). Once that all over i can just be nervous about a house.

My mind is racing at ludicrous speed and I can't hold on to a thought for more than a flinch. Note pads are helping slowly.

Love and miss all

Peace out cub scout

My life is turning into a dervish and I am beside my self wondering how to steer.

I need a center and i thought i found it for a minute but then it spun off and is on the outer circle trying to fly free away from me. I am holding by my fingertips waiting to explode and I need some tranquility. This all started when I finally broke free and moved on. I thought I had the right idea and tried to embrace it but it feel to the wind and was out of grasp only moments after I found it. Since then i have been gazing at the sky hoping for my star to shine and the moon to fill up my emptiness. A moon has passed and nothings full and the anguish of uncertanty is moving closer to the center and i must push my self in the right direction. I now regress back to origin and hope to find peace there but vague shrowd of silince befall this tomb I lay in and all I want is a moon to shine bright on me.

I just want a house and start a new Brian

I look at the way I'm living and I want to change it fast yet I overwhelmed with every corner I turn. Work and sleep are the only two times I am content with what I have to do at the moment. Time is the only hing that runs faster than me. Need to get it together.

I have a show in a week and yet again I am nervous about the out come of everything. Plus it Musikfest time again and parents are going up to Canada and Brian is hoping for female companion, it would be musikfest if your aren't trying to chase girls around and try and spark any sort of chemistry in that small week of social paradise(or hell which ever way you see it). For some reason I think I always have an interest during musikfest and it has a 25% percent chance of Brian having a girl more than interested in me for I need the BOOTY, and cuddling and stuff like that. If only I could work in Saucon Valley at some point in the next week I think everything would be better. We'll see how it is.

Got to go hit things with sticks so i am less nervous about next week.

Funhouse Thursday July 30 @ 10pm.

Peace out cub scout

So I have an hour show on Sunday at the Mezza Luna Bar/club, F that S, and we had a boring serious drama fest which is always entertaining But seriously I'm neverous. With coming back to work , it was just an evil virus and I was super dehydrated, and the gig frenzy over two half hour sets...how lame is that. they better have some good gosh darn tootin food there. Well I guess I can't relax until after the next funhouse show on the Eve of MusikFest 2009, I could relax at least the weekend. ok feel sick and tired must sleep.

Peace out Cub Scout

So the past two days I think I have been having a lyme fever and finally took most of the day off. Its fun...its like the inverted Mushroom trip. You start with muscle and joint pains all throughout your body and your heart has a change in beat regularly. Plus, at least for me, cold sweats. That is the only reason i think it is a lyme fever. Last time I had really weird dreams and was freezing in the upstairs bedroom(band room). Last night i had soaked my sheets and thought I was a concrete worker at the Sands. Talk about Psychosis. I never felt the urge to wash my sheets any faster then I did this morning. I was in pretty bad shape yesterday but some how pushed on through a whole day on a steep hill, planting bighting trees. I new something was wrong when I went to Wawa and started shivering cause of the AC. Shivered when the breeze went by in the sun. A constent stage of nausea has plagued me too. I have no urge to eat since noon yesterday. although I force fed a cliff bar at 3. Not very successful but i knew it would help. Carter let me leave early and I went straight to the worste sleep I have ever had. I woke up three times and had to immediately go back to sleep for lack of motor skills. So at 4 I hear my mom get up, you got to consult Dr. Mom if she was actually a doctor. I knew I was able to go to work but for how long. So she says take some advil and drive to the job for quick getaway if needed. Sound advice. Got to be tough. He... I could even get thru two hours. Mother called the doc and I am set for an appointment to day. Now I am home feeling okay but all pains in joints are still there. So i felt like bothering you and telling you all the signs of bad ticks.

Besides from that I am in constant strife about m y life and where its going. Being up at the farm in Maine and seeing all my cousins makes me feel incomplete. They are all on there way or have a family. I know I'm still young in the sense but I feel a breakthrough needs to occur. I feel like i'm on the back burner and I need closure. I have so much doubt that it almost equals the pain my body is in right now. Kind of a duality of strife. There is so much to do and I don't feel the urge to do it. The pain kills.

I feel like I could eat this is a breakthrough on one side.

I haven't seen Transformers two yet. Is it worth it to see it in theater's.

Peace out Cub Scout

I feel Like I am packed for a canoe trip. I am bringing all the gear I would use ecept the canoe and cooking equipment. I tumpted(process of strapping a leather strap 22 feet long w/ headstrap on to a pice of Canoeing Gear) my Wannigan( wooden box to the spec. of canoe gunnels{the sides} used for storage of food or Jewlery{Kitchenware}). This is very exciting for me for I am going to bush my own campsite since my family is too lame have wasted there money on a lovely cottage on our 200 acre farm. Well only a few thing left but I need some sleep for I hate to sleep in SUV bucket seats.

I wish you all could come with me and spend the weekend camping. so Happy right now despite severe case of emptiness andenvy of going to see yet another happy couple MY AGE getting married and starting a life of common interests and adventures.

Ok finish packing.
Check!
Sleep
Cekhc.......

POCS

First full show at the fun house was a great success. It's the fun house so you can't really judge.

We are booked for Thursday July 30th which is the Thursday before Musik Fest. I hope any who are willing and able will be there.

Off to pack for my exciting 10 hour drive with my parents. I can't wait to see my cousin Rob. He is the only one on my dad's side that isn't pretentious so I like him. Well my dad's youngest brother has the youngest brother syndrome so he is cool too. All the other Ivy league cousin's...I'm not so sure about but we'll see.

Then 4th o July I help God brother Mike move into his new house. Much goodness.

Well that's all

Peace Out Cub Scout
^^

So Monday My parents leave for there 40th anniversary to Alaska. There doing a cool Nat Geo Cruise(very Jealous). Whic leaves the house to me for two weeks. During those weeks I have a work party on friday the 12th and then the sexy party the next day, then next week I have to shows. Thursday June 18 at the funhouse from 10 -2 and Friday for an hour set at Dave Philips. Excited and Nervous about all of it. Well...

If you in the area and feel sexy come on down to my house on the 13th. Wear something that looks or makes you feel sexy. Alice from Resident Evil Apocalypse. I want a girls with a short skirt and a LOOOOONG JACKET! Bring a six pack of swanky beer or a bottle of wine or whatever could help me thwart being out of spirits. We got beer pong, Quoits, and much more so stop on by. There' even a prize for Sexiest person at the party:) sounds enticing.

Now with my rain day I shall pick musiks and cleans up cat dander and fuss withs the's lacks of computer spaced thing. VOORDY VOORDY VOOUR so sayith the Swedish Chef ( yet again David's favorite charcter in Muppets) 2 for 2. You best get up too the valley on Saturday your govment peoples.

LATER

POCS

I have so muvh going on in the next month to two that I am overwhelmed with thoughts and planning and preparing.

June 13 if your around. SP my house

I think Dave is having the geek party this weekend. Not sure.

Ok blah blah I haven't been updating nobody reads this anyways.

I feel like a buddist protestor lighting up in the middle of a town square in relation to relationships.

Sexy party is in 18 days and I have most of the agenda planned but I don't want have like sausages fest in Vienna. Plus I still have lack of Brian when it comes to talking to girls let alone having them come to my super sexy DISCO DISCO amazing awesome party. So i don't got that going for me which isn't nice.

Sound Census has gigs two nights in a row. June 18 @ the Funhouse(thats a Thursday,hope Tammy works) and Friday the 19 @ Dave Philips on Union St.

My Parents Leave on the 8th of June and Return On the 21st So I have alot of Cat and Dog watching to do. Which also equals the whole cleaning up four cats and one dogs worth of hair all over the house. You have to safari for the stuff. If you let it go it will turn into a jungle. The cats are practically lions anyways. All the animals get lonely when mommy leaves. I just wish I could find a mommy for those two weeks. X suck it X

True Blood goes into season 2 on the 21st of june. Hoot

Go Redwings ... Boo Chicago cept Rei for she is awesome even if she routing against me. She's against doom since 2005 and thats what counts. <3

Peace Out Cub Scout

To all BRFTE personel that don't know...We have had a sonic off of 33 near the Moosingtons for a while. So ya'll gett back here and we can BRFTE them in the face. (random side note of a restored draft from whenever^^

Ok those times when stick boy giggles and see's my inteligence....well this aint in that same format but could be construddled as one. HEHEHE

OK
Eggs Breakfast
milk Breakfast
MOOOOOSE Breakfast

Chocolate Cake for breakfast

My Life is a Bubble of Blah. I want to Break this bubbble and and use the caps to EmPhaSize as if I were talking. I should be a sleep right now but I have this great soul High that I felt on Monday! *tire screach*

Monday $@)

JBB (that reggae band I played at dave's birthday 3 years ago...inside voices)
If it wasn't on a monday you guys probably would have gone cause it is awesome.
I just dropped in to see what condition my condition was in.

I have to Break this Lame Bubble of Blah!

Resident Evil 5 was released today and alot of VG stores like Best Buy and Gamestop where having events. The Best Buy up in Stroudsburg turned there store into a Viral outbreak. The army even came and played along. At on point a zombie came out of the building before midnight and the armys grabbed him and put him back inside. Beside waiting in the cold for an hour it was totally worth me jumping 2 feet in the air when Salvador (aka burlap bag Chainsaw massacre guy) came out with a chainsaw with no blade. he had a body attached to it. It was fun.

Big WOOOT for secret Agent Cobra!!!!!!!!!

Well I am now at the pinnacle of my life whether I like it or not. I go back to work next Monday, the band is finally coming together and we may start being a band, my car needs help which cost money and cigarettes have gone up to almost NYC prices 10 years ago.

My body shakes at the final hours of free time and a rush of clarity fills heart with pain and angst. I'm afraid of my life and where it is going. I 'm the last in line at the bus stop and I haven't even got a ticket. The bus is leaving in twenty minutes but I don't have enough for the fare. I have these thoughts and dreams al the time but this is a selfish demon. He holds me as close to the thoroughfare hoping for a horse to trample me or a cart break an axle and tip my way. I don't want another year devoid of content. To make it any better would increase how long I spend here.

My friends are my only bond and I hope to meet more excellent people who have earned the right to be almost as Crazy Wacked out as me. If it weren't for you I would not know anything but hate and sorrow.

Another winter of solitude almost over

Peace out cub Scouts

Yeah what I just said again...damn topics they always give up the goods to soon. well at least in this case. so YEAH! All Bethlems must report to the Slovakian Organization of Kooky Old Loudmouthed Shmuck's.

What up.

Life's the same.

If anyone is around..free...interested

sun Mar 8 ice skating in the afternoon and we'll see from there
mon mar 9 Go kart racing
fri mar 13 Res Evil 5 Stroudsburg BB party (ZOMBIES ATE MY BEST BUY)
sun mar 15 Z Day (going to Venus Project Convention)
Mon Apr 20 JBB is playing in West Chester with another awesome Reggae band

TBA
Pumpkin Illosophy Stupid Center Aka Dirt filled Wheel Barrow's
Will be plying out sometime soon. Don't know all details but when I know you'll all know


Sat Jun TBA Sexy Party Lots must come. My goal this winter/spring is to sexy up the yard.

Yesterday was my brother's 30th birthday. Go Bro. He probably had one of those movie heaven birthday parties where all of his idols from the living and all friends now on the other side come and hang out and watch a life reel and make fun of it. who knows. Marvin Gay came in straight trippin!

Holidays have been nice...

I'm still trying to gather friends who aren't working on a Monday to come out with me today but most our drunk or working. plans made only one day in advance only work for the planner:( I will never be a community organizer. I don't know what I am going to be ...All I know is I am sick of being a reclusive social outcast. well things won't change until I have some money and support. Both hard to come by right now.

Off to clean the den OS and maybe start reading a southern Vampire Mystery. actually my out of shape bonestructure requires a warm muscle relaxing bath.

Oh cheery Fed holidays.
Everything sucks about nothing and I hate it. As Martin iggs would say" I'm really pissed off right now." This will pass in a few minutes but I am riding the wave and bitching about how I don't even bitch anymore. Sitting around all day cause its raining and nobody to spend it with sucks! My social life Sucks. My father SUCKS! Social Appeal Sucks! Having a shortness of self confidence when trying to find someone to spend a rainy day with SUCKS! Substance abuse Sucks! Money Sucks! Turning 26 in 4 months and missing any plan to change this Sucks!

Having no moon on a dark night Sucks!

The President of Zimbabwe SUCKS TOO!
he sucks worse than I do, but that is because he kills people

moment passed.

The band formerly known as Pumpkin Center is going to be looking at February for the next appearance. Always end on a good note.

I am the master of cunning

Peace out cub scouts

I haven't posted in a while and it make me fill to the brim with jibberish excited dysclekskia.

I CAN"T WHAT FOR YOU TO SHUT ME UP!!!!

Mindless Self Indulgence Was at crock Rock tonight and totally missed everyone for this concert. For all the RE $ heads...You all STUPID MOTHERF*%^ERs!!!! The whole show was awesome and I felt dumb that I hadn't listened to the new CD like all last month for I couldn't recognize some songs. They did play alot of my favorite song EXCEPT BITCHES:( * terrible stab in the spleen JIMMY* But the jumping all over the stage and disappearing aka lying on the stage for witch I could not lay an eye on. Kitty was awesome and amazing for she is a female industrial drummer and a damn good one. Sexy head nod to help keep rythem and tons of zazz. Her life must be fun for she had no lack in the ZAZZ department. ZAZZville. ZAZZ. Now you want something that lacks the quality of ZAZZ its me when it comes to good looking ladies to put your you know what in...what you mean the Sausage. I was wearing my I beat your mom at mario kart shirt and everyone was commenting on it. but of coarse when the hottest amazon in the place is WAM! not a foot away from Liz and I obviously waiting for friends and I could even strike up a conversation. No brain function, Circulatory failure. I am trying harder and gainig small amounts of bold experience. I am very untrained but sick of always turning into cute and bashful. Mas webos.

Barroness next thursday I head to Broca Beach. On friday we head back to Springfield for the great reason to wear Lime Green Soccer Socks. We Have two routes, one being 80 and the other is a smoke screen to the 1st JBB show I ever saw in ny and down the the hills of Yankton. I f you don't have Vipers to train or documents to process And you are free to maybe a lunch of some sorts. We should talk on a secure line for all this code hurts the head.

This night ROCKED

I love you all
Peace out Cub scout
Zero
Bitches

I can make this pencil dissapear>

Avatar is over but it ended so happy and epic.

Parents are leaving next monday for 11 days and I am haing festivities mid wy through say the 1st to the 5th of august so if your feel musikfest might be lame minus the headliners and plaza tropical on a friday or saturday then I invite to you waste your lives away at my place for a bit. big Tv, beer pong and quoits. not to mention the big tv will have ROCK BAND( which might turn into charoke revolution death doom moosiefate. If you are around the valley ANY OF YOUZ with a Z then call up and come by or do that random surprise visit when you where supposed to be away. that work too.

WHERE DID IT GO

immortalized!!!
RIP

Peace out cub scouts